Monday, October 19, 2009

stop this train

i'm so happy the rain went away. I thoroughly enjoyed the sun today.

my weekend was pretty good. i went to visit my best friend in north philly FINALLY. she bought this house in august and i have been trying to visit her for so long. i also had my other close friend visit from nashville and it was awesome to see her as usual.

today is just a stressful day. i am really struggling trying to figure out what it is exactly that i want to do. I can't settle with a major and when I think of a career outside of college I am completely confused. nothing seems to be exciting for me and my advisor made everything worse by just making me realize how i have no clue what the fuck i am doing.

so.. i spent the rest of the day bugging out. I'm really worried I will end up transferring again which would be a huge pain in the ass especially because i really like dvc and living in doylestown with my two roommates. but what if i can't settle with a major at dvc? do i settle for something i only kind of like or do i transfer... again... and lose credits and be in school until i'm 30. my first reason for transferring to dvc was because i thought i'd find a major but i feel like every second i am changing my mind and nothing seems to be working out.

i guess i'm just trying to figure out my future and coming up with absolutely nothing. it's kind of bullshit though am i honestly supposed to figure out what i want to do for the rest of my life at 20? I sure hope not.


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  2. i know exactly how you feel, we talk about this all the time, i'm transferring after spring and still don't know what i want to do semester

  3. I definitly know how you feel..I felt like that for the past couple of years, and I still kind of do, but I finally feel like I have a plan now. It'll all fall into place : )

  4. i've been doubting my life direction too, i have met 65 year olds that say don't know what they want to be when they grow up so there is not much hope. just take lie as it comes